Heatbreak

Heatbreak

• Thursday, November 24, 2011

Everyone has his share of heartbreak. We all have sorrows and sadness to cope with. Despite all of the happiness people around us may bring, we never could deny the fact that we will rot in the cemetery alone. We came to the world alone with enough courage. We die alone too.

However, the Almighty tells us to look for partners. Even marriage is a Sunnah.

She already found someone and that someone found her too. Everything seems so magical. The world turns from a useless jungle into a halcyon forest full of flowers and fruit-bearing trees. She fell in love. It meant losing her perspective of being alone; thus, the word defies itself to being a couple.

Then, she becomes emotionally-attached to that person. She believed that the both of them will make it through the trials of life. She believed that obstacles are things that will not hinder them from love.



Then comes death. Death. Death. How would she be able to accept the fact that the nearly-silver wedding anniversary will not reach the 25th? How would she be able to accept the fact that she can never see him again? When it is hard for the children to lose their parents, how much more for the person who has been with him since the day he laid eyes on her? Barely. She barely lacks the knowledge on the hows of grief. All she knows is that 24 years of love. All she knows is the heartbreak she felt when he left.



She barely knows how to cope with pain. She has gone through all of the pain alone. Pain accompanies her in every tear her eye drops. Pain is the only mechanism. Every moment of her life, she remembers him. Every second is dedicated to him. Two months more and she'll feel the pain again as she felt in 2008 but now she is stronger. She knows that he is waiting for her only. Now that she has another trial to take, she never thinks that she is alone. She accepts the fact that Allah has reasons. All of which is for her well-being.

She never told anyone but I know. I know her story. I know her pain. I know everything because she can never keep a secret from her daughter.